Pre-Shavuos and Shavuos for Those Who Are at Least Somewhat Desperate
And when you’ve stretched your hearing and your vision about as far as you think you can, you know that there is more there, yet to come.
That’s the name I know you by, having only this morning learned your given name. And “friend” is a good name. It’s not one that’s as commonly used as it once was.
You came from overseas to visit Eretz Yisroel for the first time, and you spent a lot of time with your good friend who is also my friend. I didn’t have a chance to meet you, and I haven’t heard a lot, but just enough, of some things going on in your life. And I’m seriously thinking of offering a workshop based on some things I’ve found out through my experience, to be called “For Those Who Are at Least Somewhat Desperate.”
From what I’ve heard, you might qualify. So do I, so that’s already two, and there are a lot more out there. It doesn’t mean total desperation, although that’s good also, but even just somewhat desperate in maybe one place.
So here’s the big news:
Shavuos is coming.
You know that already.
But there are a few possibilities most of us have never thought of, at least in a serious way, and it’s when we have even something of the aspect of desperation that we can be open to some previously unrealized possibilities. If it doesn’t seem dangerous we can investigate.
Here’s another piece of big news, which is a summing up of what is written further here:
We can have access to sights, sounds, and senses that lie outside of our present spectrum, and it is very likely that therein lie the answers to questions we as individuals and as a community are so much in need of. The experience of pre-Shavuos and Shavuos can help us gain that access and change our lives dramatically.
A little introduction to this way of looking at Shavuos is in order, I think, and then we can get to how that affects our lives and situations today, which is what Torah is supposed to do.
So we’re coming up to three days before Shavuos, which was when the nation was gathered together in a unified group at the foot of the mountain, waiting for the experience to come which they knew would change everything, including themselves, each and every one, forever.
You can imagine the anticipation. If you want, you can spend some time in the next few days imagining it and getting ready for it. The culmination was the giving of the gift, accompanied by thunder and lightning of a kind never seen before or since. The mountains quaked, etc. And the people? What was it for them? We know something of what happened when they received the gift: their souls left them.
But what about before that, in the previous three days, and the three days before that which is what we’re in now?
Picture yourself there, six days before Matan Torah. You’re beginning to make a space within you and your awareness for the idea that it’s time to make your way towards the mountain. It takes time for all the pieces to come together, but all along the way you are becoming more and more aware that there is something going on. It’s something that you’re sensing on a subconscious level, both within you in your own subconscious and outside of you in the subconscious level of the creation.
As it becomes subtly stronger and stronger, you find yourself stretching your imagination to grasp what it is that’s going on. It may be in the middle of the night, or some other quiet place and time. It may be in the midst of people. But you find the “sound of quiet” there.
You listen to it and you become more aware of it, as it’s getting louder. Still distant, but a little louder. There is going to be lightning, not only thunder, and you begin to sense that something different is happening in the sky as you look up to it. You allow yourself to spend more time looking up, beginning to sense something of what it is, even if your sensing is not the way you are used to seeing.
You gradually allow more of your vision and your hearing to expand, to see and hear more of the silence and the presently unseen. What’s happening is not like something that you are used to, but you know that those words, seeing and hearing, somehow fit what you are experiencing.
And when you’ve stretched your hearing and your vision about as far as you think you can do, you know that there is more there, yet to come.
It’s here that we come back to our lives and begin to understand what all this can become for us.
We all have situations, our blocks, whether they seem to be inside of us or outside of us. When we’ve gone as far as we’ve gone, done as much as we can, there’s a wall someplace in our path and it’s blocking us. We’ve tried many things and there doesn’t seem to be a way of getting around it. We feel we just can’t go any further.
But there is something further. It exists just beyond the limits of our present-moment seeing and hearing. Hashem created us to go forward. That’s what He wants us to do. To go forward in His way, bringing fixing to His universe.
As part of the game, there are blocks put up. It might not be any fun without that. But in order for us to expand ourselves and go beyond ourselves in His Service, which is needed and desired, He gave us also the blocks and also the ways to go beyond the blocks and become more of what He wants.
The opportunity is available every day, but some times are especially suitable for that, such as Shabbos and the Yomim Tovim, good days. Shavuos is, obviously, one of them. and one way it’s true is as we described up above:
Just beyond the limits of our sight and hearing, there is a fuller spectrum of sound and light available to us.
At the end of the limits of your imagination and experience, there is a block in a certain, or more than one, point of your life, where you feel you can’t go any further. And just beyond that block are the answers, the ways you can go that will help you get unblocked, and it will also affect the people around you.
I have no idea what those ways are for you. Psychologists and other experienced professionals can help you make some moves that might help. For instance, they may recommend that you speak to certain people. But out there, beyond your blocks, are ways that you can grasp that will help you maximize those moves.
Try visualizing some of the above things that are happening in these days. There are many sources in Chazal for visualization, so that shouldn’t worry you.
I can promise you one thing: Out there just beyond your present spectrum, you’ll hear and see everything, while hearing and seeing nothing.
Sounds crazy maybe, but this is the time of miracles, such as occurred at Matan Torah, and the miracle of contradictions, like hearing and not hearing coming together.
If you’re looking for vision like you are used to, like you’ve heard about, forget it. You probably won’t see any angels coming to you, or other unearthly visions. And no sounds like that either.
But I promise you that you will hear and see many things and you may never know what they are. But just because you don’t know what you are seeing and hearing, it doesn’t mean that they don’t exist or that you’re not affected by them. .
And you are affected by them when you stretch yourself this way. After that, in a few minutes, or an hour, or a day or two, you might find yourself having new insights about how to handle something.
Know that they came directly out of your work in visualizing yourself at Har Sinai, where you touched into your subconscious, in connection with the subconscious of the universe, and from there become aware of solutions and ways of acting that you never thought of before, or believed in before, and you know somehow that they are things that fit you exactly, things that feel very comfortable to you, as if they’ve always been part of you.
You have become empowered by this kind of vision, designing your life for maybe the first time.